Thursday, June 16, 2005
what a ShAGGY SAy
wake up... at 2+ meeting twins and ph at yu hua there play bball...WO.. Haha...go there le...wa.. yu hua pplz really very shiok very nice to play there lo..but we lose every match la.. but very fun.. and can do training there..yeah...after that go 108 there find juncheng...then go tj... bl tl they really siao lo.. the 2 of them always saying each other very lousy now they 2 play agains each other...haha.. 3 mathc.. bl lossess... WO.....haha now know who le horx.. then they 2 tired liaoz.. mi and ph battle each other... ph letting mi win cos he is trying to train mi to play well...lucky never kanna 0... won him 3 round.. but is a letting game horx...haha..ph is my motivation to play bball.. YEAH~~!!.. and the twins is my motivation to.. cos when playing they sure got stupid laming things comming out from thir mouths.. HEEZ...bu YAo K WO.. mmM.. mi played with ph but never play wif tl and bl... last time lose to both of them... haha lack of stenmina...haiz...sucks sia.. loLX;..kk when home le then bath.. sis jermaine.. msged mi about tmls rock climing.. mMM the twins and ph suddenly say dont wan... twins going malaysia.. ph got things on.. then the whole things canceled cos only mi.. sis also sick.. HAiz.. sis better see a doc tml...take cares o...kkz... mi now writing blog.. nothing to do ... k i will end here.. thats all..tataz for now.. FlOOd My TaGGY....~~!! HEez...
lollypop [9:02 AM]
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
I NEed SOmE GuiDence...~~!!
i mISs YoU AloT... YoU kNoe who i am refering to.....i want to forget you and dont wanna forget you...i KnoE iS a very stupid way to wait for you .. you wont come back to mi i KnOE that....my msges to you is very lame msg or a stupid msg...that you wont reply.... i dont wanna lock you i wanna let you be free...... you ask mi to do anything i will try my fullest best to do it.. i really wish to see you....i really wish to see you having a happy life ... i did think very far.. and i knoe i am childish...you wanted someone who is mature... but thats secondary life....i never regrated having my first girlfriend is you.......the time before my science exam you called me... i dont wan you to have a sleepy mind in class for the next day...and for O is around the corner... i wanted to chat with you and ask for your guidence but i dont wan you to be tired in class...i wanted you to study well that time...i have wasted your time in studies.. and cause you not to go for your dream as an tour guide .... i am really sorry....you didnt get in to the course is all because of me... i didnt try my best to please you...to sastisfy you.....till now my love to you has not change abit,but your love towards mi has changed. I tried my best to forget you,but i cant. You have choose the right path to leave mi and go for your happiness. Remember that time i choosed you, i did not regrated abit. i Cant go now But in the future i WILL. You can come back to me anytime, BUt i KNoe thats impossible. i never lied to you ever. you want a guy who is mature, yes i know i am not.. but you are wrong, I know when fun i will fun like hell, when seriouse i will be seriouse, what is right what is wrong. But thats the first time i am in love, it takes time to Know whats love, and time is love. You remembered there is a time i almost fainted and you where there..before that is the twins birthday..i cant get up the bus because it is full, Mad and you did manage to get up the bus but not mi...after that i know there is another bus stop right infrount, i ran over there and waited for the bus..and i stopped immediatly at the bus stop where my heart almost stop pounding i felt cramps every where, and 188 bus has came, aboard there is you and mad, and you asked me howcome i am over at the bus stop and thats why....that time was 7+ i dont wish to let you go home by your self at that time, but in the end i failed to send you home....only at the busstop before yours.....you were there for mi... i felt very warmth......... Rememberd there is a time that after your english oral you needed mi and i am not there...i already know that you needed mi but i go off...i waited half way i was called back actually.......not that i dont wanted to wait for you.....and you Know that everyday i waited for you...i am really sorry....deeply...regrated my actions to leave you..... whith you i can study hard for my exams.. you gave mi the light my path.....now i know that everyhing i did... did not touch your heart...that time we where together it was exam period... i cant take you out have a strol or shopping or watching a movie ....we all need to study you and me .....then i planned.. to take you out accompany you take away your saddness.....but right after your exam you suggested to have a break...and i brought a heavy heart a splitted heart..for my business trip to shang hai.......without see you before i fly off....i know you dont wanted to see me or even go out...or having a short chat on the phone... i really really deeply miss your voice your heart your warmth and the days we had together counting stars....you did those play around with guys chatting funny and happyly... i do feel jealouse.... i cant control you is what you wanted to do so i let you have it....i also hate those quite quite embrance too...i just wanted to hear your sweet voice which clears my mind , i did not been a good boyfriend to you...did or didn't i dont kNow that...haiz.... i have been daies i did not sleep proply and i dont kNOE why... i did not say is your fault....so dont say it....i know that you have been hinting mi you wanted a break up by avoiding me.. seeing mi transparently....i know that...i tried to shead a drip of tear that night... but i cant...and i dont know whats holding my tears behind...i know i am selfish but i dont you want to go your way just go i wont stop you...i will be happy if you are happy thats all...
~~~~~~!!! Hope you will read this and please tell mi your feelings when i am with you...is not your fault i just want to know whats the feeling and that did you love me before or non other just playing with mi trough out the whole relationship Thank you !!!~~~~~~~
*~! No mEttEr What you Say i WIll still Always love you till the end !~*
lollypop [12:12 PM]
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
pratcing guitar and writing BlOG Heez
okokz.. EArly in tHE mOrnING 5+ noW.. ThE forth Day never sleep Well.. DoNT kNoE Why..iT IS TRUE ThAt and i KNOE That Zai ShA Sha De DenG Dai ni ye Bu HuI Hue Lai.. buT nEver mInD...i jUSt wan you to get merried and get your happiness and a true husben that treat you yi pian zhi xin... YEah... mMM... all mY subs Failed (expected)... inprove abit.... but still fail...haiz... really hard lo.. cant study... i sux... damn shit..i WAn EDuCATiONS EDuCaTIoNS.. i WAn IT MorE>>~~!!! YEAh...Hahaha thats all ba.. ta ta for now... c yach... ja nehs.. oyahsuminasai
-=BaBy Can YoU TeLl mi Why... there are sadness in your eyes...i DoNT wan TO Say It OuT TO you....THAts WHy YoU Go.. The WAy I KnOW..........=-
lollypop [2:06 PM]
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